Nobody wants to be called stupid, but I must admit I have been ignorant most of my life. People tell me I’m being too hard on myself. ‘You’re not stupid,’ they say. Ok, so I came out of the womb, and I didn’t have a chance to learn right away, but let me say that I had my chance in Elementary school to think about reality, but I never got around to it.
Now, what is a synonym for stupid? Perhaps I could find something less harsh. Ok, unintelligent. No, that’s worse… wait, I have the perfect synonym for stupid… uninformed.
I’m not stupid. Actually, my DNA seems to favor becoming an intellectual, but what about the years I wasted reading self-help books about personal psychic powers? Or what about all the time I spent strumming on guitars or going to the movies, only to see fictional characters blow cars up? Surely, I should have been watching CNN and the history channel all that time.
Man, it's depressing. I feel like a robot finally coming to terms with the concept of a soul.
I want to make a collection of tricks. Not magic tricks. I mean nasty tricks, or types of deception… or, what do I mean? Ok, I mean lies. Wow, there are synonyms for everything!
According to organizations, corporations, news media, and conniving politicians, the term is different. The tricks usually mean politicians and newscasters throwing facts and statistics around like baseballs, emitting politically correct garbage from their heads that doesn’t explain anything and yet seems to express some mysterious justifiable concern. However, it never seems clear what plan is actually being proposed by these politicians, and rarely do we see these plans in action, unless it involves going to war.
Now, of course, just like any other upper-class white Christian growing up in the Corn Belt, I was tuned into many local and regional interests, but I had no time for books, and I was too young to venture out on my own, so I was basically stuck with the political ideology of my family and my naïve peers, also under the control of their parents. But really, that was okay. If you are a Christian in the suburbs of the Midwest and you have lots of money like I did, life is a kind of innocent utopia – until you lose your religion of course. When you lose your religion, all hell breaks loose… literally! When I lost my religion, it struck me that money and comfort become guilty pleasures without the belief they are the Lord’s blessing.
From the day I became a spiritual agnostic, I knew I had to explore the world, but I didn’t know where to begin. I have discovered, throughout many years of confusion and ignorance, the key point to understanding something is to acquire all knowledge pertaining to a single point of interest and to physically explore that interest, that is avoid most, if not all, secondary information.
Nobody can know everything nor go everywhere, and therefore we can’t have an opinion on everything. Maybe we feel ashamed we don’t know everything – it just doesn’t seem American to not have ALL of something – unless we’re proud of our appearance, in which case we flaunt our sexuality to compensate for our ignorance – this act of compensation makes the clothing industry thrive. If we look beautiful, it’s easy to ignore how ugly the world is.
The American public finds this kind of optimism virtuous. Meanwhile, Americans seem more comfortable with laughing about the war, as opposed to normal responses like crying, screaming, yelling – the sounds war victims in Iraq or Afghanistan make when they are bombed, shot at, or systematically tortured.
If we can’t establish a meaningful platform for discussion about war, our culture finds we mine as well laugh at it. And if we can’t understand the atrocities of war itself, how can we be affected by it, when it is fought entirely outside our borders? Most of us give up on becoming knowledgeable. We claim it’s to difficult, or we say ‘I can’t do anything about it, so why should I waste time worrying about it?’
It’s a cliché, but knowledge is power. It helps us choose what we buy, what we do, what we think about, what we say, what we experience– it changes everything, our complete interpretation of the events that surround us. We are what we think, and usually we must think before we act. We must A) decide what we care about and B) decide who we trust. Do we trust the corporations? Do commercials on television convince us we are buying products from good and decent corporations, who give their workers fair wages, benefits, and working conditions? Do we trust the product itself?
We could ask ourselves questions all day, every day– just simply by becoming curious enough. However, the majority of Americans do not seek knowledge. We allow knowledge to come to us. We allow the morning news on television to go directly into our English bran muffin and strong cup of coffee. We would rather trust the media but criticize the government; it’s easier, and besides it is more entertaining and less time consuming to watch television as opposed to becoming part-time investigators. There is usually not the time, energy, or even the knowledge for the average American to do real research. It is our choice to become knowledgeable or dumb, but it is never too late to learn something; it can only be too late to react.
Knowledge is one thing. Emotion is something different, also very important. Are we angry at the war? Do we really want it to end? Or do we secretly approve of weakening the Third World and obliterating any chances for their infrastructure or a so-called democracy in progress? The sad thing is, I don’t think people even think about it either way. It’s not that Americans want people to suffer. I don’t think Americans are that sadistic. It’s just that war is not thought about or talked about. It’s like other types of trauma, like rape for example. Rape victims often deny in their own minds that they’ve been raped. It doesn’t reach the surface, even when the circumstances are appropriate for it to be dealt with. It’s just bottled up. I think someday America is really going to be in trouble, and we will finally talk about issues such as foreign imperialism and a situation like global warming, but this will likely only occur when our survival is at stake, if for example Florida is half-covered in water, or the world gets caught up in a another missile crisis.
The time to react to these problems is now, before things get nasty. Like many other people, I've been tricked, and I’m not sure what to do or where to go. It’s a tough decision to make. I think the only reasonable course of action is to better understand the world by becoming a part of it, which doesn’t mean buying $200 denim jeans from Urban Outfitters or taping reruns of American Idol. It means something else, but nobody really knows what. I think we are intimidated by the control economy and politics has over us. At the very least, we still have control of ourselves. Shouldn't that be a starting point?